“I had two longings and one was fighting the other. I wanted to be loved and I wanted to be always alone.”
– Jean Rhys
no it’s so funny it’s so funny to me one second im like i literally need human connection to be alive and the next im like i don’t think i am meant to ever let anyone know me and being resolved to do everything in life alone is literally completely fine
Trying to change is so overwhelming my heart is racing and I’m just running around my apartment today trying to live differently
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wanting time to pass because life is hard to deal with at the time vs the never ending anxiety over the passage of time
i need everyone to reassure me they love me at all times
Cor Van Weele - Untitled, c. 1970
anyone else out there yearning for something they cannot name?
4rba:
i need the worlds easiest job and i need it to pay me $100,000 a year
“It’s taboo to admit that you’re lonely. You can make jokes about it, of course. You can tell people that you spend most of your time with Netflix or that you haven’t left the house today and you might not even go outside tomorrow. But rarely do you ever tell people about the true depths of your loneliness, about how you feel more and more alienated from your friends each passing day and you’re not sure how to fix it. It seems like everyone is just better at living than you are. A part of you knew this was going to happen. Growing up, you just had this feeling that you wouldn’t transition well to adult life, that you’d fall right through the cracks. And look at you now, it’s happening.”











